The earliest stage in your psychosexual development (0-6 months), according to Julia Kristeva.
In this pre-lingual stage of development, you were dominated by a chaotic mix of perceptions, feelings, and needs.
You did not distinguish your own self from that of your mother or even the world around you.
Rather, you spent your time taking into yourself everything that you experienced as pleasurable without any acknowledgment of boundaries.
This is the stage, then, when you were closest to the pure materiality of existence, or what Lacan terms "the Real."
At this stage, you were, according to Kristeva, purely dominated by your drives (both life drives and the death drives).